I had such a rough day. Everything is falling apart. It started off great. I slept in late, didn’t have to go to work, and I was supposed to go see a movie with my two best guy friends. Well, I got all dressed up. Might I say I was looking pretty cute, haha. And one of the people I was supposed to see a movie with came to pick me up. We left to go to new town where his girlfriend was supposed to meet up with us. Well, she couldn’t come. So, this guy and I just walked around for awhile. It was alot of fun. Well, he tell me that the other guy who was supposed to come doesn’t want to. I said oh, that’s fine. ( Even though.. It’s the same guy I am unconditionally in love with.) We walked around a bit when we decided to call him and joke around and say oooohhhh you should be here and stuff. Well, I guess he took it offensively and freaked out on me. The other guy I was with tells me the other guys girlfriend hates me. Which kinda makes me mad and a little satified. It made me mad because when I met this girl.. I treated her as nice as I possibly could. I mean, she IS dating the ex I still have feelings for. But, the she goes and tell them she hates me.. Like WHAT THE FUCK! Bitch, you don’t even know me. I am trying to be the nicest fucking person to you even though deep down I hate your nasty ass sausage guts and YOU go and say YOU hate ME?! That drives me crazy. I never even gave a reason for her to hate me. It also makes me happy to know she OBVIOUSLY takes me as a threat. Which is my only excuse to why she would hate me. ANYWAY. So, this guy starts cusing at me saying I am the reason him and his current girlfriend got into some huge fight.. OK. Sooooo, for ONE you’re obviously not over me if you’re still talking about me to your current girlfriend. TWO why are you talking to her about me if you don’t care about me. Yeah, I bet you DID tell her some lame ass lies about me so she would hate me. Like I give a flying FUCK. Well, then he said something that I swear to god will be burning in the back of my mind for absoulte enturnity. “You are the BIGGEST regret of my life.” Oh my god.. How am I supposed to take that. Like.. I was with this guy for nine months. Nine months of my life I will never get back. And that was the biggest regret of your life. Glad I spent all this time crying, and whining about you. Glad I spent every waking moment of everyday to make sure YOU were okay. That YOU were still happy. That YOU knew I still loved you. And you say this. But, I’ll be fine. I am practically over him. Except, for ever single memory, every single picture, every single dream I had of him. Now, all that’s left for me to do is… Move on.
Psh, this will be fucking fun.